Daughter : A Split Personality....

When you think of a baby girl, your mind would conjur up images of pink satin ribbons, frilly frocks, cute hairstyles, dainty shoes etc...but life is full of surprises and so is a wonderful girl child, a daughter who is definitely meant to be yours forever, yet never yours!

I sometimes curse the culture that prevails and is being carried over from generations together..."Betiyan, hamesha Paraya Dhan hoti hai",which means ; "Daughters are always meant to dwell at their husbands' home after marriage..."

All the years since her childhood, the girl spends every minute, every second, every moment thinking all that is hers, only to realise, one day, that it was never meant to be. The home she lived for so many years will just be a house she will visit now, the friends she had all through her life are now available only through calls and may meet once in a way, the chaat places where she used to hog like crazy will be only thought about as good memories, the roads, the nukads, the parks, every place will just boil down to "past" in her life. All the 25 years of her life was just a trailor. The movie is now in the making. A making of a new life where she starts again from a scratch. She starts from Take 1. She is gonna mould herself from a daughter to a wife, a daughter in law, a mother, a sister in law and many such roles, time and again.

A place where the person she will TRUST the MOST is her Husband. Only because of that one faith, that he will always be by her side, take care of her, she enters the new world like a baby but accomplishes things no less than a Woman. She gathers all the beads of the family and becomes that string which binds everyone , unites everyone, and irrespective of her comfort zone, she ensures everyone around her are comfortable. She ensures that her new parents are happy , she let goes her desires to make everything look as normal as it was before her being a part of the family. She knows the words "Ma" , "Pa" have always been the first words she uttered as a child, when she did not even know what they meant...now she will make an attempt to do the same again, after 25 long years, like a baby, she will say "Ma", "Pa" to people who are so new in her life, to people about whom she has been told, "we are just like your parents"! The difference being she now knows what the words "Ma" and "Pa" mean . Deep down, she knows and only her heart feels, "No one can be like her own "Ma" and "Pa"!!! She just accepts every single relation of her sole connection, her guy, just as easily as anyone could imagine...no questions asked, everything just done, to bring a curve, the best curve , the smiley curve, in her life with all the new aquaintances!

A guy goes through a lot of changes as well. Its a new life for him too, however, the responsibility is not as vast as hers. He does not have to live with her family, he just has to ensure that they are fine. It is not mandatory for him to call her parents "Mom" "Dad"! He does not have to change his lifestyle much, just a tweek is required and life's rocking again!
At the end of it, the girl never marries the Guy alone, she marries his family! This is life, we are Indian Girls, we do change and adapt very easily, we are Women, hence we have all the endurance and the flexibiltiy to bring change in our lives so easily...so easily with few tears rolling down our eyes, we just walk the aisle and just give our hand to that one Guy, the Man of our life....and in one shot, 25 years of the wonderful life, just become memories, just something that was never ours...!!!

This is the second innings of a girls life...and as always, it has to rock....she will ensure it is the best!!! Though, this is the most difficult time of a girls life. The days that a guy counts for his wedding are also the days a girl counts, but, the paths are different. The guy is wiating for the new wonderful life ahead, the guy is looking forward for the lovely future he is gonna have and make.The girl counts her days,with a lot of inhibitions, with mixed feelings, waiting for the new life where she knows she has someone solely for herself...yet living every second, smiling as much as she can. Sometimes, wonders if there could be a remote which could pause the time, so that she could enjoy the moment of her just as the role of a Daughter forever. Alas, she has to move , lay her foot in another direction...another path, for a hand is waiting, a support is waiting eagerly! Ouch!!

Multiple roles, multiple characters played by a single woman in this movie called "Journey of a Girl, a Daughter" ...the ending of which will always and always be "Happy"...thats the Pledge every girl will make coz if it is not "Happy" its not the ending!!!

Smile and be proud to be a woman today!!!

How Much can One Love!!!!????

Everyone falls in love at least once in a life time! Here, am not talking about loving family or friends...but that one true love that happens at least once with everyone...
For some lucky people it happens again and again..or they tend to realise that their true love is the current one and the previous one was never “the” one...;)
However, for some people it happens just once...the person is matured enough to know that it is the love of their life...and they just go with the flow. But, then comes a storm. The true love fades away...and what remains is just an incomplete love story. First love is incomplete!!! Now, apparently, this one blow, remains as a scar forever. As times goes by, you tend to meet many more worthy people , people who love you like crazy but, you are so hurt or so stuck with your first love that you fail to recognise that. You start comparing the present with the past. You are not satisfied. You say a NO. Or, you do not have the courage to go ahead again, and you tell the person that it is better you remain friends..which is never possible for the opposite. You do this coz you do not have the strength to face the failure again, you do this coz you do not want to dream again, you do this coz you do not wanna see tears again, you do this coz you cannot take the pain again...!!! So you decide to never fall in love again...!!!
One life, but one failure makes you take these decisions (which appear so trivial later) for the good years of your life and you do not realise that you end up losing a lot!!! All this comes back as sheer pictures in the later part of your empty life...!! Trust me!!
Sometimes, inspite of stopping yourself, for years together and being firm that LOVE will not happen again, ever, it happens!! You are too scared to accept it. You are too sceptical. You try and do everything that takes you to the opposite directions. But, LOVE, itself is so strong, that you just get carried away. The person ends up being everything you ever wished for. All the time that you are with the person, you never realise anything, coz you have a mental block of not going through Love again...but, it just happens..! Again, there’s a new ray of hope..again, you see a rainbow..again, life becomes more beautiful than before and everything around you is simply tantalising...!!!
Alas, this time when you connote this, it so happens that this ends up being your love story but not the opposite. This Love means the world to you but may not be the same on the other end. This time, you have already made tons of sketches of your love story, but, apparently, there are no colours to these...it never started!! This time theres NO ONE to blame. You cannot force someone to be your world!!!
Again, you get blue funked, again you only see sunsets, again, you feel so empty!!! This time the pain gets worse, coz, this time, you have no one to blame, this time, you saw, you began, you have to end! The end is difficult, coz, its so difficult to curb a feleing, a feeling so strong, a feeling which kept blooming for years together inspite of your strength to hold on, to not dive, and now theres no way out!!! It feels like Life has collided with death and just fallen apart...these piece of an incomplete love again are there to keep you alive, but they can never get back together to live life!!!
How much can one Love!!?? Is it possible to ever Love again?? Maybe, yes, but mostly NO. You just begin accepting anything and everything that will come your way after this. No life...no feelings..nothing!!! Bejaan....how much can one love!!!??

Mystifying Vibes! ;)

I have started working after a very long break. I am back now to a life which I have already lived. Same city, same traffic, same pollution, same working hours! However, this time, its taking a huge toll on me. I have managed a professional life for 5 years and nothing has changed so far. Henc, am wondering why am I not able to still adapt to the change. I realize that earlier when I started working, I was very young, a fresher straight out of college and had loadz of energy and zeal. I do have the zeal now as well, but, it has been seasoned. It is not raw anymore. I have a lovely job, a lovely home, some good old friends to hang out with, yet, there is something missing. I somehow feel very hollow. It’s not that I am not happy, but, still, I am not sure what I am waiting for. Its not a desperate situation, its not a need for someone, its not a desire to do something, but, strangely, am not sure what I am waiting for. This starky feeling comes every single minute, and maybe , this is the only reason why I am still not used to the new change. I wonder what it is , I need to know, coz I wanna feel complete, impeccable! I wanna express every emotion from within. A smile curves my face very easily, but, dunno, I feel the sparks missing!!
Need to find a solution soon..else, will end up in the wrong direction!
Ek ajeeb si kashish hai, sab kuch hai, fir bhi kuch nahin, itne saare dost hai fir bhi koi nahin..kya hai yeh! Kyun hai yeh!

The Gorgeous me!

How many times have we felt like not talking to someone coz they are better than us? How many times have we stepped back coz we do not think high of ourselves? How many times have we shed a tear coz someone said some bitter truth about us and it hit us very badly?
There are many times when we feel low, miserable, disgusted, and what not just because we lack confidence in ourselves. It could be because we are not very intelligent, or maybe because we are constantly being compared to someone better or simply because we always want to be someone else!
It’s all about what you think! Over the years, I have been going through this phase of trying to be better than someone else or just working hard towards not being “me”! I would waste days together feeling lonely and cribbing about all the not so important things around me. Eventually I realized many things and things which I know for sure, will never bring a frown or put me in doldrums.
I would like to bring to light here specifically, the “Looks” factor. I come with average looks, an ok complexion and am on the heavier side. I would always compare myself to people who are pretty or slim or feel inferior to people who are tall and look great. Alas, I failed to see and recognize my inner beauty. Ultimately, what matters is this. The outer appearance changes as you age, but the inner beauty only gets more prettier, more groomed, more graceful, as the age grows. No matter how you look, just be confident about yourself. Someone does not talk to you because of your looks or just ignores you, don’t retaliate, don’t feel low, rather, walk past them. Look beyond. Make them realize that you indeed are the most gorgeous person they have ever met, coz, your heart is worth a million beautiful faces! Do not compare, rather, see what your potential is and bring the best out. Of course, work and do everything that you can to look better physically, never give up on that, however, do not forget that what lasts is simply “YOU”! If you end up looking great, don’t overdo it with pride. Nurture yourself, to ensure, that people around are happy to see through your eyes, into your heart. Ensure, that even if you are plain and simple like an Oyster, deep down lies a beautiful radiant pearl! Age grows, wrinkles start creeping…these wrinkles should be the sign of the real you, they should be the sign of a seasoned life!!
Believe in yourself, coz, you are perfect the way you are!!! Let people like you for what you are, and not for what you can be to their eyes. You want to change, change for yourself, but not at the cost of others!
So, am all set to be the most gorgeous one ever!! I feel good to feel it!!

FRIENDS OR COMPANIONS

All my life I have had loads of Friends and am sure most of us, if we are the gregarious kind and who trust everyone easily, will have. When you are in school, if you have the maximum circle of friends, you definitely are the most popular kinds. Everyone would look upto you. Sometimes, they would even try and do things that you do or wear clothes the kinds you wear and much more. All this is just great till you are in school. But what matters is how many of these friends really last or are "with you" through all phases of your life. As I have grown, as the eyars have passed by, I have realised that there are very few, just as many as your fingers, who are with you through your thick and thin. The sooner you learn to filter your friends the better. I am using the word filter because, most of the times, the more time we spend with our chosen friends for life, we start believing that they are evrything to us. We create a world of fun around us, but somehow apprecitae it only when it has our "best friends" in it. This , everyone would agree, is true 80% of the time.
But of course, theres another face to this.
When you start living your life with those few friends, one thing is bound to happen. Either you or your friend would start taking you for granted. You would never relaise this even if its been happening all the time, but, it would start pinching only when something in your normal life goes a little abnormal. Or, maybe when you start expecting a lot more than required from your freind. There are times, when "you" would consider your friend as "The Best friend for Life" only to realise that only "YOU" consider them as your best friend. Its not the same the other way. Or you would be dying to meet your friend after a long long holiday only to see that your friend is too busy just to say a "HI". Or you just want to meet your friend to say a Goodbye as you know you are not gonna have them beside you for long, only to see that your friend doesnt even care! How many of us have felt this time and again with some or the other friend/friends?
I just want to say that you need to be extremely lucky to be 60 and still have the friends who were with you when you were 20. Its always better to have a balance and hold on your feelings for a friend. The best way to do that is expect the least. Try and give more in friendship than to ask more. Try as many friends as you can because to find one true friend is like eating a melon.Try and be there for your friend only as much as the friend needs you. Do not overdo, sometimes it really becomes difficult to deny or avoid. Try and be the first one to apologise if things go wrong, coz if you have found a true friend, its too bad to lose the treausre just like that. I can go on and on which most of us know and do all our lives... But do all this only if your friend is really worth it, if not, try, once, twice, thrice...then move on, and start a new search, a new trust, a new faith...!!!
One friend who can be with you till your last breath is worth a thousand friends who last with you as long as you are in the same school or as long as you are in the same organization....these are just "Companions"!
I am lucky coz I know who are my "Companions" and who are my "Friends"!!! :)
Do you know? Start knowing them, its worth the precious smile!!

Impeccable Arranged Marriages

"Marriages are made in heaven"....I somehow want to believe this but its true only when it happens. For some people it happenes too early and for some when they least expect it happens! The day everyone gets married, people do think it as their best day but eventually time says everything!!!
For a girl who has NO LOVE LIFE, has no choice but rely upon the families to search a groom for her...!!! At times, lifes experiences make you believe somewhere deep within that you cannot have a Love marriage...but ofcourse, we never lose hopes on it!
Now, if you are a girl and you come from a typical family where the ideal age to get married is 22 or 23 and because of your ambitious quality, you somehow cross that age..you realise, that somehow the whole world around you , have suddenly started worrying about you. I come from such a family, where, I do have all the freedom i could ever ask for, but somehow, we all live not just with our family but are somehow connected to the society around us, the people around us... So even if your family is taking it cool, the people around just build all the pressures. At these times, no matter how great your parents are, they do get carried away..ofcourse, nothing bad about it...but still!!!
I have come across many guys. Apparently have realised, that the guy and their families always expect more than they get from the girl they are looking at. I don't know whats with the "Groom World" nowadays. There are two kinds that I have come across and not to forget, both kinds want "Perfect Girls". This one kind of Groom World needs a girl who is great to look at, who has a perfect body, who can look hot when they are moms,who can cook, and do a 9 to 5 job. In short manage everything, from home, to husband to family to self grooming. And theres this other kind, who want everything mentioned above minus the working bit. They want their girl to be a pakka housewife, a home maker. And, if you have crossed the age, your opiniond about a guy do not matter. You are asked to compromise on everything as families, relatives fear that the more the age graph increases, the lesser good guys you would find. I just ask them, how good are these guys..?? In a common world, Indian family, most of the to be brides say "I want a guy who has a flawless skin, who has a great body, who is a great dad, etc etc"..but in reality how much of it is really considered..eventually the girl is asked to compromise on most of the things...coz..she simply is a girl!!
Its very easy for a guy to say, "I don't think this would work out, because you are not great at your looks", " I don't think this will workout if you want to do a job", "I don't think this will work out if you are not a great cook" and so on and so forth..
For once, all the guys who are going for an arranged marriage, put yourselves in a Girls shoes, maybe the size is not the same, but just try....make an effort. A girl has lived for 25 to 26 odd years of her life with all her dreams intact...day on day...she has so many desires till she lives, she wishes to dance in the rain, she wishes to have a cozy sunday, she wishes she could have a team under her, she wishes she could just watch TV someday and laze around, she wishes someone would cook for her too..she wishes a lot of things..But most of the times, she gives up everything because she is with someone who wants her to be someone else..she kills all her desires for the happiness of someone else...and inspite of all this, when one day she cant be "that" someone, she changes. And then, after all the years of hardwork, when she ceases to be that "someone" who she never was...she is no more respected..people talk about her changed nature, and so many such things...And all this just because the Lady started being herself again..??
I do agree that not all girls go through this, but most of them do...and all they can do is just listen, get advoses from the entire world, agree...if the same thing is done by a guy, he is not even blamed...I know times are changing, but, still, not changed. Things of these sorts do exist even today in most of the typical Indian families.
Eventhough, the guy is not a wee bit like you have dreamt of, you need to accept the fact that this is "The Guy". The guy may not be good looking, may not be the humorous kind, may not have a family like yours, but still they rule. They definitely have the right to walk in , walk out, choose and deny any and every girl.
All this happens...it truly does...and still hopes never die...A girl keeps hoping that someday she will get the right guy, and if she does not, she will still consider him the right guy...she will make sure everybit of her life her guy smiles...irrespective if she does..she will definitely hope she gets a family like hers, and if she does not she will adapt herself to new family...but she will still smile...she will do everything just to make sure everyone around her are happy....but she will only smile!!!!
Hopes never cease...dreams never stop...just accept everything and move on...you never know, life may have surprises!!!! Just don't give up which most of the girls do..and start accepting...lets choose...lets walk in and walk out...lets just not agree to everything...common...lets stop the sacrifices... :)
After all...marriages are made in heaven and they are impeccable... or are they second rated? ;)

Blue Funk

Blue Funk, dullness, bleakness or Depression, what is it..?? Depression means different to each one... To some the feeling you get when your dream is shattered is "depression", to some the same shattered dream is a stepping stone to a new one. To some the feeling of a break up of a long last love is "depression", to some the same break up is a reason to be stronger than before. To some the feeling of a broken family is "depression", to some the same is a start to new responsibilities. There are many such examples that I can cite here, but at the end of the day I feel its worthless to get depressed. Depression brings in many things along with it, it brings in fear, it brings in uncertanity, weakness and the extremity being at times suicides! Our mind and our heart play a very cruical role at the time of depression. Most of the times they work together. But at the peak of any emotion, they prefer to stay apart and be opponents.
Many a times I get depressed as well. There are times my depression has lasted for months together. At the time of depression, eveyrthing will seem negative. Mind will not want to think in any direction except the direction which the mind has convinced the heart and the heart just follows. I would fail to see the brighter side of life and what not. I do agree, that time of depression is really bad and not everyone can undertsand or express the feel. But when I would get over it after all the thinking and advises from the near dear, I would realise, I wasted a lot , LOT of precious time which I can never get back. Over a period of time, one realises that being depressed is no solution. Its just a way the mind thinks and manipulates the wonderful heart to be dull. Depression can kill the moment. It can make you lose what you already have or an opportunity can be overlooked.
I have relaised that each day needs to be taken the way it comes. Definitely, think about the future, dream big, laugh always, but when the future doesnt turn out the way you thought, dreams are not fulfilled, don't be depressed, don't blame The God, don't say "Why me", just smile, and think for a moment with all your heart. A positive energy will flow, just hold on to it and you will feel that whatever happens, happens for good, maybe theres another bigger dream that is gonna be fulfilled, maybe the best is yet to come, maybe , maybe...
Life is beautiful if you choose to see it and always, picture abhi baaki hai..!!! Laugh, smile, beam, cackle,snicker...everythiing will seem easy and great!!! :)

Mumbai and Me

Dreams many a times take me from a world of bitterness to a world that I always wished to be in. I have spent many of my wonderful childhood days in Mumbai. Mumbai, the city that brings a smile on my face and a twinkle in my eye, no matter where I hear it or wht I am doing. Since, most of my childhood was spent there, I got so attached to Mumbai that when I was in college, I had no dooubts that I would land there. Alas, things that you want the most never come to you easily unless you are LUCKY! Well, I ended up in Blore with a job and a new life. A new city to explore. I spent 5 years and I do not regret any single moment spent there. However, I still wish, I still believe I should be in Mumbai. The city has so much life, every minute counts, every second is important, else you juat miss the Train. The train could be just a medium of transport putting you from Wadala to Andheri, or it could be a train of the innumerable opportunities that the city has, or a train to the life of those crazy people who do not believe in sleeping at night, or just a train to the benches at the serne and calm sea , the Nariman Point. Name it and you find it is what the city is about. Right from the best slum areas to the best bungalows is Mumabi. Right from a 10 Buck Vada Pav to a 500 Buck Falafal is Mumbai. I just can go on and on about my dream city. It isn't an impossible task to be in Mumbai. But at times, you are just so crippled because of your circumstances or even more apt would be due to opportunities that were not grabbed at the right time. Neverthless, Mumbai is calling and I will soon be there and live the dreams that I have seen. There is no pleasure than just living your dremas!!! A small cozy flat, a job that I look forward to each day, a nice terrace, is what my independence is about. Not too many friends, jus a subtle life is what I am about. Mumbai is the place where I see all this and I hope I live it soon...!!! :)

Networking....

When I was in school, the only way we stayed connected was through Emails or home phones. But, today, the youngest of the lot, are so adepted to the networking sites that emiling is always a second option. The first thing when they would ask is , "Are you on FB", "Are you on Twitter" and what not. I did not even know half these things existed till I was in college. But, today, if you are not on any of these, you will be considered a person from the prehistoric times.
On giving second thoughts, I would agree that these sites have done wonders. Let me share the best experience of Orkut and also one of the reasons why I loved Orkut. After school, everyone went to different colleges and later on to different places for further studies or jobs. One fine day the few of us who were in touch, decided to have a reunion. However, it seemed a little impossible as it was 7 years since we all had graduated from school. Most of the email ids, written down in our scrapbooks while leaving school did not even exist. We did not even know where half the crowd was. It was a total tough job. The only way, we then started, searching for all our freiends was through Orkut. Whether people stayed connected or not through emails, the moment a friend was added on orkut, the whole Re-union thingy looked bright and the rest is history.
Orkut was the bandwagon for every individual. Though we have exceptions! Soon after orkut, started the Face Book funda. Since, everyone have been so used to Orkut, Facebook being so neoteric with its applications, pokes, games, and what not, most of the people found it a little baffling. But, eventually got used to it.
Now there are a number of such sites, the more you are on them, the more you stay connected with your people. After, a cxertain period, one would just stick to the initial connections and use it bare minimum. Like, for example, I stopped using orkut. I stopped sending scraps. I now am active on FB, but not much.
Anyways, each one has its own way of staying connected, for some its just a click way , for the rest its just a phone call away.
However, staying connected is all that matters. The medium can be anything.

Couch Potato

The dictionary meaning of "Couch Potato" , as everyone knows, is "a person who spends all the leisure time in watching television. I always thought how could a person watch so much television. It really is not satisfying. However, today was one such day for me in all these years. I have watched television since morning 10.30 and stopped just a while ago. Towards afternoon, I thought to myself, "I am wasting a lot of time", "I can do something else", "why am I doing this?" etc etc. I am surprised, I have been on that bean bag all day. Trust me, I just don't feel good. I feel all the more irritated. I feel guilty. I feel sick. My eyes are hurting. I am never ever going to do this again. And to all those who do this, wake up... it is worthless. It only brings lethargy, exasperation and anatgonized.

I need to do lot of activities to be "Me" . Buh BYe Couch Potato!!

Aal is Well

I again missed my mornig jog due to extreme laziness. I need to get rid of just this one aspect "Laziness"... Welll, the morning breakfast started with the CNN IBN News channel. The first thing I saw was a huge media questioning Vidhu Vinod Chopra, the Producer of the movie, 3i. Breifly, a controversy between the famous writer Chetan Bhagat and the entire crew of 3i. Chetan claims he has not been given enough credit for the movies success. The 3i crew says that only 5% of the movie has been adapted from the novel, 5 Point Someone. Well, to think about it, theres this one day when everyone is desperately waiting for the movie to release, and just when the success celebrations have started, there comes a big controversy. Sometimes, I wonder, how much the world is worried about success, credit, moolah, appreciation. Admist all this, we forget to have control over our emotions. Just the way Vidhu Vinod Chopra started shouting at the media and on the otehr hand Chetan Bhagat argued and questioned the crew about the book.

I have read the book and watche dthe movie as well. I feel, of course the movie has been adapted from the book, the ground work is from the book. Neverthless, it is quiet different form the book in many aspects as well. The credit goes to both. This does not demand a silly and nonsensical fight. All this is just a mess. Anyways, it is a little surprising to see these controversies but the fact is they are not new either. The glamour world is dry without these.

Anyways, taht apart, my day was again not just the way I thought it would be. I havent studied a bit, and time is just flying. Neither have I concentrated on my calories today. Well, I would still say , "Aal is Well"..and its still not too late!!!!!

3i

3 Idiots, one of the best movies of the year 2009. I have loved the movie for everything, the story, the script, the actors, the direction, everything...!! This movie has made me believe that you have to be "Extraordinary" to make the world see you. It is not important to be intelligent, it is not important to go to the best school, it is not important to get the best grades, just know the best of your talent and oursue it with all the heart and soul. You will be extraordinary and success will be yours without even you noticing it. This movie also opens the eye of many parnets who unnecessarily force their kids to be something which according to them is the best, but never ask their kids what they really want to be. This movie also exposes our education system which only pressurises us with loadz of assignments and projects.

In all, a movie which is just not a movie but a learning. Kudos to the entire crew and its members for giving us, such a great time!

Routine and a Calll

2010 is the eyar I am gonna Blog every single day. I am going to make it a habit. This blog of mine will reflect every part of me...the moody me, the bubbly me, the ambitious me, the angry me, the smiley me....everything!!!

Today, began with loadz of messages from all the near dear ones wishing me a happy and a prosperous new year. Since, I am jobless , I have monopolised myself with a bit of cooking, dusting, making chocolates for sale, creative arts and ofcourse studying.. Now, last year I had decided that each day of the year 2010 would be filled with lot of reading, studying and indulging myself in knowledge improvement. Alas, the first day did not turn out anything like that. It did involve cooking, dusting, making chocolates and then came a call. Suddenly, I realised one of my very old and close fren was leaving Mysore for sometime, and ofcourse, I had to meet him. Hence, I was off to meet him and time just flew by. I still have 6 hours before the first day ends and I still can stick to what I decided.

Coming to think about it, Frens can jus be so wonderful. If a friend means a lot to you, you would just keep everything aside with just one call. I have many companions but very few friends. This year, I am going to intorduce to you all, my close frens who mean a lot to me and have made a big difference to my world. Today, was one such fren. He has helped me change the way I think, to be precise, he has made me realise that emotions and sentiments are not valued by everyone. So just don't show it to all. Let the world know that you are as strong as a mountain eventhough you have a heart which can just melt with a hug... I can write loadz about him , but guess, this is all that I would want to share. He means a lot to me and I am sure when he reads this, he will smile... :)

Hello 2010 !!

Is it the time to make resolutions?? There was a time long long ago when every new year we made resolutions, resolutions to ensure that we lived a life of perfection for the next 12 months. I remember, I would make resolutions, follow them for a month and bang! its gone with the wind..

This year, I just need to finish the incomplete things to make a complete me... I have been delaying on this from quiet sometime , but now I know I want to and I will.
One, would be to lose weight, to go on a Himalayan trek and to complete my PG. These are my primary goals, and of course what is life without the endless list of "To Do". Today being the very first day of the year, it has gone just the way I wanted it to be unlike most of my days where I am just pleasing others, or just doing things because I have to. Its a new start and I am gonna have a perky life ahead. I choose it to be this way and this year I will be just "me" but with a addon...

People who know me will love the new me for sure....and people who do not would love to know me..!!! I wear this attitude!

Happy New Year to all!!!!

Risk, Life, Meaning!

All of us have certain events designed in our sub conscious mind. And sometimes we organise our life to ensure the events designed are perfect and our life is tuned for teh designs to work. I had designed such models in my head when I started my professional life. I always aimed more than I could achieve. The results were awesome. But then came a time, where I woke up each day thinking, "I do not want to live life this way". Everytime I closed my eyes in the night I felt "I wish I had magical powers"! I somehow did not believe I felt this way coz I always thought life had its phases. Sometimes they can be great, good and sometimes they can be so bad. I would convince myself, bad times don't last long. It will be fine. I went on this way for more than a year. Then comes the end of the longanimity of life. There comes the day where you just cannot push it further. I realised I had not been smiling. I realised the precious moments of my life were just ravaged with stupid philosophies of "Phase of Life"!! I realised, I wanted to sleep peacefully. I realised I wanted to be happy. I realised I wanted to spread my happiness and not get a shoulder to cry. I realised that it is now or never. I decided to take the risk of my life. I went against my policy of "Independent Strong Woman" to just a "Strong Woman". I QUIT MY JOB. I have 'n' number of people telling me , "You shouldn't have, till you find another job", "How are you going to manage financially", "You will be dependendt now", "You will get frustrated" and blah blah! But I told them all, I want to live a life of respect. I want to be rich. I want to be sucessful. I want to be happy. I want to have a sound sleep. If I spend the 9 hours of my day in a job that I do not like, the rest of my day gets fucked up. I want to do something which just not gives me the monetary benefits but also makes me sit back and appreciate the small wonders of life! There is nothing called a low phase. Take the risk, there will be only a one thing in life. Satisfaction which will lead to Happiness.

So here I am today, with absolute no regrets of having quit a job in todays world without having another one. I have taken the step of giving my life a nice design and draft. The colours of success will be filled eventually. My life is going to beautiful!!!

Take a risk!! You will not regret! :)

Resume!!

When I first started working, I did not really think much on how my CV should look like. All I did was just put in my qualification and all my co curriculars and the additional talent that i had. It was so easy!!!!!! But today, after around 5 years of work experience, when I sit and think of making a CV, I feel stressed! Yep, Stressed because if I have to write all that I did in the last 5 years, I would never get a job. It seems, recrutires just take 10 seconds to view your Cv and hence, it ought to be short, crisp and PERFECT! Only then you would get exactly the kind of job you want! Initially I had a 2 page Cv with almost everything in it, accomplishments, ambition, qualification, experience blah blah blah. But, this time when I redid my Cv with the help of a fren of mine, I realised certain things:

• Your goal should be apt to your experience and should not be anything that comes out of your head!
• Experience of each organization that you worked for should not have more than 4 to 5 points, preferably bullet points. These points should be the TOP BEST things you have done in your organization. The rest of the good things done by you could be spoken during the interview if needed.
• Technology is at its peak. Every organization has the basic ABC requirements like your computer skills etc. These need not be elaborated. They could just be out in a single sentence under heads like "Additional Information". This could also contain things like special trainings which really hit a punch to the CV, or some talent of yours which could make a difference to the job that you are applying to. This requires loadz of thinking as its diffcult to just put that one talent with which your CV would be heavier.
• Qualifications need not be detailed.

In short , the CV should be exactly a One Page. I am not kidding people. A One Page CV, if you look is just "a page" but trust me, it took me close to 46 hours to make it!! One has to think of "Power Words" while making a CV. If you use simple English and not Power Words , there are less chances that your CV will be shortlisted. The CV should be read several times before you sit back and relax and start uploading. Re-reading will throw out all the grammatical errors. Re-reading will make you relaise that there are better accomplishments of yours and you would want to rephrase certain things. Re-reading makes you change things you thought were the best a proportionate number of times. READ your CV atleast a 100 times!! Get your CV reviewed by people who have similar experience and also people who are from a totally different background. It gives a lot more clarity. Phew....!!! It is a brawny task!!!

I wonder what it would be like to have a job to just make CVs for people. It is interesteing but could definitely be gruelling!

I just know one thing, I am going to redo my CV every 3 months, just to improve it, make it look more reliable and content specific!!

Happy CV writing!

MOMMY!!!

"Ma" is the first word I learnt ever in my life and never knew it would become such a big part of my life, my soul. "Ma" is there when you are happy, when you are sad, when you are excited, when the whole world turns its back on you and the only one you can anyday fall back on!! You grow up with her and then you reach an age where you feel everything she says is outdated, where if she asks you too many questions, you feel she is getting too pecky, where if she tries her best to speak English and be the way you are, you feel insulted.... But then comes a day when you realise that she is the only one who will be there for you no matter what you wear, what you say, what you do and what shit you go through in life. She is there even when your wife would treat her badly, she still would love you juts the way she did earlier.She gives you an Unconditional love at every phase of your life!! Do take some time out of all your busy schedules and ensure that you give atleast a part of your day to your mmum!!!!!!!!

Lonliness kills everyone unless you are insane and prefer to be lonely. No one likes to stay alone, everyone wishes they have people who they love and adore always by their side, irrespective of "sukh" or "dukh". However, at times, you come to a stage where it is difficult for you to leave your independent life and go back to something you always wished for. All my years in Blore, I kept wishing that I had a job in the place where my family is. I wished each day I would get back from work and go home, where I belong. But, I chose this path. I chose to be in Blore, work here, be independednt. I have spent wonderful years here, learnt tremendously, met amazing people. But now have reached a stage where everyone is moving on, but I am finding it difficult to go ahead. I am finding difficlut to cope with my job, difficulty in making new frens, difficulty in taking life as it comes, wonder why each step is becoming difficult. And thus, if there is someone whom I can think of in this difficult times, it is my family and no one else. However, making up my mind to leave everything that I have had here and go back to be with family is difficult, doesnt really satisfy, the thought does not digest but somehow no other door seems to be open. trying to think of a life with family, studies, and basically just those things which I only wished off but never knew that when time comes I would find it difficult to diegst. All this while dreamt of all this but now since it is coming close...I somehow do not feel good!! Irony of my dream and my life!! Wonder when things will fall in place...when lonliness will leave me...when the best days would come back...when i would feel young!!!!!!

The calorie Diet Shift Method

Out of my 25 years of life, I have indulged myself in some or the other physical activity to either lose weight or atleast maintain the same weight for around 11 years. Not to disagree, that I have always been on the heavier side, but one thing is for sure, due to the activities that I have done, I am much more energetic and have loadz of stamina. Every gym, aerobics that I hit, I was always told that control on food, drink loadz of water, have a 8 hours of sleep blah blah blah. Trust me, “No Pain No Gain” but at the end of the day or after few months, you start craving for those fav dishes of yours only because you feel “One life yaar, let me just eat today” “I will work out more tomorrow”. Booommmm goes your diet plans and the hard work that you do at the gym. For a person with my body type, who gains easily but loses slowly, I feel I should never eat all the delectable food ever in my life.

Now, recently, I came across something called the Calorie Diet Shift Method. Its doing wonders, making me feel great and I am sure if I follow it for atleast 6 months, I will definitely see results. Again, 6 months, is for me, my body type, I am sure it differs!
The shifting calories method is a unique diet method which was developed in order to ensure a fast and continuous weight loss.
In contrary to other diet plan which provides a short term weight loss, the Shifting Calories method ensures that you will not gain back the weight you have lost and that you will continue to lose more and more weight for weeks and months.

• You will accomplish this weight loss
• Without depriving yourself of necessary nutrients

Without damaging your health as other diets may cause you to do.
The shifting Calories method is based on changing what you eat from one day to the next. Shifting your calories keeps your metabolism high and gets your body to burn more fat faster.

• You do not starve yourself.
• You don't have to stop eating,
• You just need to keep shifting your calories.
• You keep changing what you eat; you're never bored with your food as with other diets.
• You don't have to eat a specific food group or to stop eating one.
• You don't go hungry or get cravings for an entire food group.
• You can't eat junk food, of course, at least not as much as you like, but you do eat carbs, proteins, fruits, vegetables.
• You can create a menu based on the kind of food that you like and then you just shift it around.
  

The results are amazing!!
Calculate the calories you need to take in per day as per your height and weight, take in only that amount of calories, burn a few taken by working out for an hour!! Trust me its wonderful…
Example:
I had booked tickets for “Dil Bole Hadippa” yesterday and I can never watch a movie without a popcorn or bhelpuri. I just calculated the calories I would be taking in by consuming these, and planned my whole days food intake. End of the day, I did not starve, I substituted my food, I did not deprive myself of the Pop Corn and still managed….!!!
For all the people who want to lose weight, follow this!! It’s the new funda!!! :)

To all the daughters!

Of the numerous forwards I get, this is one which caught my attention and did touch my heart! Miss you dad! Spend as much time as you can with your loved ones, theres no greater peace and happiness than this!!! Here goes the Poem:

He was so proud of his little girlIt was her very first day of school
He walked with her to school that day
And she held his hand all the way
They walked together quiet and sad
A little girl and her loving dadInto the school her father led
But he almost cried when she said Daddy, Daddy please don't go
Don't leave me here all aloneI'll miss you if you go away
And I might need you, can't you stay
Little Daughter please don't cry
You'll be okay so dry your eyes
You have our memories in your heart
We're together though we're apart

He sat up front on her wedding day
And cried as his daughter walked away
Later that night he watched her dance
He sat there waiting for his chance
The band started to play their song
Father and daughter danced along
She looked at him and saw a tear
Then leaned and whispered in his ear
Daddy, Daddy I have to goI hate to leave you all alone
I'll miss you when I go away
But if you need me then I'll stay
Little Daughter I'll be just fine
I'll love you always you are mine
I have our memories in my heart
We're together though we're apart

She came in his room and kissed his head
Then sat next to his hospital bed
He took her hand and held it tight
And wished he had the strength to fight
They sat together quiet and sad
A daughter and her dying dad
He saw the tears she tried to hide
She looked at him and then she cried
Daddy, Daddy please don't goDon't leave me here all aloneI
'll miss you when you go away
I still need you, you have to stay
Little Daughter I love you so I want to stay but have to go
I'll always be here in your heart
We're together though we're apart