Lonliness kills everyone unless you are insane and prefer to be lonely. No one likes to stay alone, everyone wishes they have people who they love and adore always by their side, irrespective of "sukh" or "dukh". However, at times, you come to a stage where it is difficult for you to leave your independent life and go back to something you always wished for. All my years in Blore, I kept wishing that I had a job in the place where my family is. I wished each day I would get back from work and go home, where I belong. But, I chose this path. I chose to be in Blore, work here, be independednt. I have spent wonderful years here, learnt tremendously, met amazing people. But now have reached a stage where everyone is moving on, but I am finding it difficult to go ahead. I am finding difficlut to cope with my job, difficulty in making new frens, difficulty in taking life as it comes, wonder why each step is becoming difficult. And thus, if there is someone whom I can think of in this difficult times, it is my family and no one else. However, making up my mind to leave everything that I have had here and go back to be with family is difficult, doesnt really satisfy, the thought does not digest but somehow no other door seems to be open. trying to think of a life with family, studies, and basically just those things which I only wished off but never knew that when time comes I would find it difficult to diegst. All this while dreamt of all this but now since it is coming close...I somehow do not feel good!! Irony of my dream and my life!! Wonder when things will fall in place...when lonliness will leave me...when the best days would come back...when i would feel young!!!!!!